Friday, November 09, 2007

Oh, these things... they ruin me.

I'm bored and have time to kill before work, so what the hell...

A. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.

B. Each player lists 6 facts/habits about themselves.

C. At the end of the post, the player then tags 6 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

1. If I'm in an airport in a new place and I have no idea where I'm going I will use a foreign accent so that people won't think I'm an ignorant American.

2. I hate when people use the word 'party' as a verb.

3. Sometimes I go days without sleep or food on accident... It's bad, I know.

4. I love my family and friends so much it actually hurts.

5. I have a flash temper that is easily set off by stupidity and I can be very cruel to anyone who makes an ignorant comment.

6. I am a massive fan of the films.

I'm not going to tag anyone. I'm sorry. looooove you.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

-Can't think of anything witty in particular for the title...

For the longest time I've had... little lies that I slip into from situation to situation. When I say lies, I don't mean I tell them- I mean I become them. It's like a pair of shoes or dress for each occasion that I don because I want certain people to view me in a certain way. This has lent itself to some rather annoying set backs though. Because by doing this I've unintentionally created expectations in others for me to always act that way (I hope this makes sense), and it can get very tiresome to live up to those expectations.

Right now, is one of those days where all I'm thinking is, "Fuck all! I just want to be a buttercup."

This is, selfish of me to think, because I know that I'm not the only human being on the planet who acts this way, everybody does. Everybody I've ever met has different acts they put on around different people. It's normal.

Monday, October 15, 2007


I really have nothing to day right now...

I just felt like blogging.

Ignore this post.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007


yeeeeah, I can't get rid of this blog. I'm too attached to it.

I'll just have to post things on my myspace, facebook and this....


Friday, August 10, 2007


I think the time has finally come when I say farewell to this blog....

It's going to take several days, because I need to transfer all my blogs over to either my myspace profile or my facebook profile, but it has been decreed:


...and good luck?

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Boo! Hiss! Down in Front!

This week's Coodos goes to:
Thank you for speaking politely when ordering your food at the consessions stand.
Thank you for not blaming us when our inventory is out of stock (it really isn't our fault, y'know).
Most of all...
Thank you for cleaning up after yourselves and not leaving your used garbage all over the theatre floors (especially on Sundays when there is only one of us cleaning the theatre!!!)

This week's Slap on the Wrist goes to:

The Die Hard Crowd.
Don't get me wrong, everyone knows that Bruce Willis + Guns = AWESOME, but seriously folks, everytime I've had to clean a Die Hard theatre, it has never failed to be the messiest.

I know that I'm gettng paid to clean, but that doesn't mean I'm walking around with a "throw-your-shit-EVERYWHERE-and-please-don't-worry-about-it-because-it's-my-job-to-clean" sign across my forehead! 
Please, for the love of GOD...

Clean up after yourselves!!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Camp Granada: The Complete Lyrics

Hello muddah, hello faddah
Here I am at Camp Granada
Camp is very entertaining
And they say we'll have some fun if it stops raining.

I went hiking with Joe Spivy
He developed poison ivy
You remember Leonard Skinner
He got ptomaine poisoning last night after dinner.

All the counselors hate the waiters
And the lake has alligators
And the head coach wants no sissies
So he reads to us from something called Ulysses.

How I don't want this should scare ya
But my bunkmate has malaria
You remember Jeffrey Hardy
They're about to organize a searching party.

Take me home, oh muddah, faddah
Take me home, I hate Granada
Don't leave me out in the forest where
I might get eaten by a bear.
Take me home I promise I will not make noise
Or mess the house with other boys.
Oh please don't make me stay
I've been here one whole day.

Dearest faddah, darling muddah,
How's my precious little bruddah
Let me come home, if you miss me
I would even let Aunt Bertha hug and kiss me.

Wait a minute, it's stopped hailing.
Guys are swimming, guys are sailing
Playing baseball, gee that's better
Muddah, faddah kindly disregard this letter.

Monday, June 11, 2007



I never told my classmates Good-bye. Instead I wished them Good-luck.

It was the first time I ever truly meant it...

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Racial Vilification Cake Mix: Add Ignorance and stir...

Racism, Hate, Intolerance and Bigotry.

I can't say I hate those who hate, because that would then make me a hypocrit.

But for lack of a better word: I Hate Bigots.

I know someone, who will remain nameless, who is unabashedly bigoted toward Mexicans, or anyone that is of Latino decent living in the United States. His reasoning is that if you live in the US, you should speak English. It... pisses me off to no end that this guy, one of my good friends, who I know for a fact is smart, hates a race of people for such an ignorant reason. His point, while semi-valid, is not enough to justify hate toward an entire race of people. It's ridiculous.

If you are in a foreign country, like, France or someplace and you ran into an American, or someone else who's native toungue is English would you speak French with them? NO. No you would not. You would speak English. And how about China Town? Little Italy? What do you think the predominantly spoken languages are there? Even though they are still located in the United States?


Friday, June 08, 2007

My New Addiction...

You gotta respect men who are willing to live through the Hellish conditions of the Bering Sea so that people like me can enjoy alaskan crab like this one.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Out of Reach...

Coffee eyes--eyes of whiskey.
Whiskey lips--lips of silk.
silky skin--skin of milk.
Milky lips--lips like wine.

Such an elixer, is hard to find.

It tempts the soul--
Would soothe my nerves--
If only...Oh--If only...

You weren't out of reach.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Pomp and Circumstance

I'm graduating tomorrow.
never hesitate

I wonder what life has in store.
never hesitate


Monday, May 21, 2007

I'm So Sorry, Uncle Albert...

But I haven't done a bloody thing all Day.
I'm so sorry--Uncle Albert...
But the Kettle's on the Boil, I'm so easily drawn Away...

*Deep Heaving Sigh*

Oh, what? Nothing's wrong.
Honesty, it's the best it's been for a while...
I'm just--oh what I'm a looking for--what I'm I tryin' to..
Just not satisfied.

It makes me feel very bad.
Because he trys.
He tries so hard

I just don't know what I want.
quite yet

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Goodbye Fair You...

I died for Beauty--but was scarce
Adjusted int he tomb
When One who died for Truth, was lain
In an adjoining Room--

He questioned softly "Why I failed?"
"For Beauty," I replied--
"And I--for Truth--Themself are One--
We Bretheren, are," He said--

And so, as Kinsmen, met at Night--
We talked between the Rooms--
Until the Moss had reached our lips--
And covered up--our names--

-Emily Dickinson

Tuesday, May 08, 2007


One Gold Medal...
Two Bronze...
plus an imposing new title: "Pacific Northwest Champion"

Not a bad weekend, not a bad weekend at all.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

My Nerd Crush...

In my home we really only keep our television on one of three stations: The Discovery Channel, The Travel Channel and The History Channel. Occaisionally we will watch Comedy Central for the Daily Show or the Colbert Report, and Fox for House, but basically it's just those stations that dominate our "family-mindless-entertainment-time." So, imagine my surprise when coming home from school I turn on the boob-tube to see Spike TV displayed proudly on the screen.

Now, times my surprise by 10 then throw in a dash of societal shame when Star Trek: Voyager ended up being the day time television show on at 2:00 p.m. weekdays. I hadn't seen an episode of Star Trek since I was about 10 years old, so watching it sent me spiralling back to my childhood. One filled with memories of my mother's nerdy friends watching Star Trek in our living room, Star Wars and Lord of the Rings Conventions and Next Generation Action Figures (I think we still have Data... I gotta find him). I only have one thing to say about it: It was.. AWESOME!

Fuck societal shame man, Star Trek was/is cool! It's so... cheesy and action-packed, the logic they use to get out of any kind of cosmic anomoly or social peculiarity is both irrefutable and filled with plot/loop holes that a truck (or in this case a starfleet ship) could drive (fly) through.

Yet, I couldn't pull away.

...I think I've found my guilty pleasure...

Thursday, April 26, 2007


I'm so physically exhausted right now.

My legs kill.

My left arm hurts.

my feet are sore.

My brain feels like mush too.

... but I'm happy.

Thursday, April 19, 2007


You got sent to the other side of the nation to sort your life out.

But, all you've done is successfully fucked it up more.

Stop drinking.

Stop doing drugs. you're never going to be able to pas drug history if you want to go into the marines

I miss you, you're better than this.
You're smart, you're better than this.

But, whatever.

It's not my life you're screwing up, but I swear to God if you get Lisa hurt in anyway I will make you pay.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Dear God, give me the strength...

I've broken down about three times just this past week.

I'm so lost right now. I'm... very confused about most things, but at the same time very sure of a few.

The Few and Inseparable Many:
- I don't miss anybody from last year, except for maybe Sousa and Cameron Bench, even then man... not as much as I would have thought.
- I'm the world's worst friend.
- I suck as a leader.
- Congratulations Chase, you got what you wanted: I'm failing as President.
- Nothing makes me as happy as I was when fencing was the most important thing in my life.
- Andrew Cerv, Lisa Aston, Michelle Dowdle, Brett Merkeley, Scott Robinson. I'm effing lucky to have you, but there is no chance in hell that I deserve your friendship (especially Brett's after all the shit I've put him through)
- I cheated. cheated cheated cheated. On an amazing guy with someone who made me miserable what the fuck was I thinking?
- I'm a procrastinator and a fake.
- I don't care anymore, I've forgotten what caring for something feels like.
- It's hard to laugh.
- I don't know who I am any more. I'm too much of a social cameleon.
- Nathan, my little brother. I miss him so much.

I'm so emotionally stressed.

1. Get My Shit Together

Thursday, April 05, 2007


I realised something.
it's a secret

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Monday, March 26, 2007

"I'm not gonna eat tha' magic!"

So I learned that.... I have the option of NOT going to fourth term because I'm ahead in credits....

that's awesome.

I'm not taking it, but the very fact that I have that option is beautiful.

Oh and I'm going to Orem High Prom. hoorah

Sunday, March 25, 2007


Your Japanese Name Is...

Nanami Takahashi
You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.
In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!
And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.
Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

The Boondock Saints...

There are no words to describe the amount of ass this movie kicks...

Sunday, March 11, 2007

The Thing that I hate

Is that which is wrong,
that causes me grief
when turmoil is strong.

The Thing that I hate

Is something I love,
a love that destroys
a love that betrays

The Thing that I love

Sees me everyday
a Face in the morn'
I'll take to my grave

The Thing that I love...

that I kiss goodnight.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I know... I said Braden, but I can't find a picture of him on my computer

Part Three: Rebecca Dorff
Rebecca Dorff is an awesome friend. She's smart. She's funny (in her own crazy way). She's a good fencer and she understands when someone justs needs quiet time.

She is the pickiest eater I've ever met. Whenever we go on a trip an have to eat out at a restaurant, she gets the exact same meal: a burger with nothing on it but meat and ketchup... it's awesome.


Saturday, February 24, 2007

Cont. of "Why My Friends ROCK!..."

Part Two: Scott Robinson (on the right)
Scott is a cutie. That's all I have to say about him. He is definetly one of my funnier pals, like if I could rate him on a one-to-ten scale, he would be a TEN. He always makes me laugh with his silly crazy antics, no matter how sad or angry I am at myself at a tournament he can always put a smile on my face and a laugh in my heart (aawwww soo cliche).

In Denver we totally created a game with another one of our friends named Braden (he will be part three of next weeks installment of "Why My Friends Rock!...") It's called "The Mute Game." We got a regular T.V. remote controller and took turns telling stories and being periodically muted with the remote-control. Seriously, funniest game ever! Especially if you get the timing just right. ooohhh man. hilarious

Scott: cool kid, fun guy and all around lovable.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Many Part Series: Why My Friends ROCK!...

Part One: Jonathan Ott
Jon and his family are way cool. They used to live in Spanish Fork (I think) and both Jon and his father fenced with me at Utah Valley Sport Fencing, but now he lives in Boulder or Denver or Avara..Avacad...well somewhere in Colorado. I just spent a weekend at his house with my teammates for the Junior Olympics and I have never felt so... well taken care of in my entire life. His parents would get up early early in the morning and cook us breakfast, they would drive us all to and from the airport/venue/restaurants and best of all they made me coffee in the mornings.

Jon is just an awesome guy! I can be the biggest dork around him and not feel like I have to live up to my intelligence level. He accepts all of his friends for who they are and he's loyal as hell. Anytime any of us are at a National Competition with eachother he would make sure and come to as many of UVSF fencer's bouts and pools as possible and cheer just as loud as the rest of us. I love that even though we only ever see him like three times a year and no longer fences with us, he still considers us his team. It's beautiful.

Jon is a great guy. I'm blessed to have known him and lucky that I can call him a friend.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

"I Was Once A Wise Fool..."

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Theatre is my passion. It's what I live for, and what I come to school for...or so I thought. It's what I planned to do after I graduated. I was going to go to Southern Utah University, and master in Theatre. I was going to become a High School Drama least, that's what I was going to do. Until I woke up one morning and asked myself what the point of pretending to be someone else was exactly? Did I do it because I like to entertain? Did I do it because I thought it was fun? Or was it because I didn't like who I was, and I wanted to be someone else? And the answer made me sick. I'm a pathalogical liar, to myself and others all because I can't deal with the real world.

So if that's not what I want to do, then what is? It's terrifying to not have the answers.

My life is changing. Drastically. Things that I thought were important, now seem moot. Things that I didn't really care about, things I didn't think would be important in my life are now suddenly major determining factors in my life. I had my life planned out, I knew what I was going to do and how I would do it. Now, my scrupulous planning, it seems, was all for naught. It's scary. I feel out of control; my foot is stuck on the accelerator of the Car o' Life, I'm careening, swerving in and out having to dodge traffic, and all I can do is hold on to the wheel and pray to God that I survive.

I should listen to myself.

I'm about to make a decision here.

It feels right.

..but I'm still scared.

Friday, February 09, 2007

Should I...?

I recieved a full tuition and fees scholarhsip offer from Casper College, located in Casper Wyoming, it's pretty neat... one small problem:IT'S THE GEOGRAPHIC CENTER OF NOWHERE!

Sunday, February 04, 2007

The Rest Is Still Unwritten...

I really don't like that song that much... I just like that line.

It makes me feel like I'm in control of my life.

I'm in control of my future.

I'm in control.


And that feeling is glorious.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Curious George

Curious George is my hero. I'm serious.

Saturday, January 13, 2007


I figured it out.

Well... I figured this out.

So here it is.

My Moment of Zen: There's a difference between priorities and loyalties.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

I've Decided

The three worst movies ever made...

1. Brother's Grimm

2. Dungeons and Dragons

3. The Covenant.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Way To Kick It Off...

I'm the worst human being EVER.

another exapmle of self-hypocrisy at work.

my new year's resolution: To forever keep my big mouth shut!