blahblahblahaaahh black sheep...

okay so my title has nothing to do with my actual blog....well the first part did, then it reminded me of bah bah black sheep...and that's when everything fell apart. okay so the noise...it was brought upon by my currently sticky situation...I shouldn't even be making a blog about this, because it's just going to come back and bite me in the ass, but I'm about to go insane if I don't write it down somewhere, and nobody ever reads my blog, so it'a all good....

okay, since basically anyone who is going to read this already knows who these guys are...I'm still going to give them names...guy1, and guy2.

okay so everyone who knows me well knows that I have had this thing on and off for guy1 for a while now, and I think that he's beginning to like me back, which is good because I've liked him for so long...now this is where guy2 gets involved, I like guy2...alot (but I like guy1 more) and well he's being more....blatant about his feelings toward me than guy1...what it comes down to is this; I won't try anything with guy2 if I know I have a chance with guy1, but I don't KNOW if I have a chance with guy1, I just THINK that I might, and I don't KNOW if guy1 is going to get his butt in gear and just DO something about his feelings toward me (if he has any)because he knows that I like him, or if he's going to just stick with droolng over what he can't get. In the mean time I don't want to lead guy2 into believing there might be a chance for something between us, but if guy1 doesn't do anything, he's going to lose his chance because I'm jsut going to give up on him and go for guy2.....!

wow...writing that down really helped...