Wednesday, August 17, 2005

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk...

You have to be willing to lose something in order to gain something...

That's how it always is isn't it? You have to be willing to lay your pride out on the line when you go up on strip. You have to accept defeat in order to gain glory. You have to be willing to suffer great heartache and loss when you give someone your heart...EVERY decision we make has a lasting consequence, whether the consequence is positive or negative we have to learn to live with it.

What if you don't want to suffer? What if you don't want to have to deal with heartache? What if you don't want to have to lose? All you want is for things to go your way?...Wouldn't we all just love to have life go our way? Well Life isn't perfect. If you want to learn something, ANYTHING from this life you have to risk something.

And this, my friends, is why I am such a coward...and there really is no way to...I guess, articulate what I'm trying to say... I have set myself up for so much pain, and awkwardness...and I'm wondering if it's worth it, this is such a pessimistic view on this but I can't help but wonder in the end, when it's all over, when I look back...Will it be worth it?

10 comments:

that lisa girl said...

ok, this might not ALL apply, but especially note the last part of the quote...:

"...never lie, steal, cheat or drink. but if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. if you must steal, steal away from bad company. if you must cheat, cheat death. and if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away..."

and jessy, to find those moments, TAKE the risk. it WILL be worth it, though whether in a positive or negative way is up to YOU. YOU made the choice to love, and YOU are the one who must make the choice to use this experience to your benefit or to your defeat.

I speak from personal experience, hun. ...I just wish I would LIVE what I believe.

Sousa said...

Ask yourself what you want. Think about the future an ask yourself will you be happier taking the risk, even if you get hurt, or doing nothing at all. It's your life so you have to make that call. I know what my decision is, but I can't say whether it's good or bad, all I can say is that I've made it and it's gotten me this far and this happy.

You have to decide to take it or leave it, right now. That's the only question you need to ask. So what it going to be?

kiorstie said...

Not to be pessimistic.... but that's all I'm good for lately...... I used to think like Sousa and Lisa... that you could be happier in the long run taking the risk even if you get hurt. But I did that.... I took risks and thought I would be happier in the long run, because I thought the possibility of being hurt would be outweighed by the fact that I didn't have to wonder what would have happened. But it didn't. Of course, I don't know the situation here because I am a million miles away and out of every loop there is... and of course it all depends on the risk you're talking about.... but sometimes wondering what could have happened is much much much better than taking the risk and leaving yourself open to be hurt. Because hurt never really leaves. Not completely.

Smiles0415 said...

I don't know what to say, Jessy. I've kind of been dealing with a similar dilemma...I wish I could help you...but, if you find out an answer let me know. I feel your pain Jessy. I can give you no advice but at least know that you aren't alone.

Sousa said...

Kristi's right... that's why you have to choose.

I don't care about being hurt. I'll blow it all to hell on a gut feeling and damn the consequences, but that's just me. That's why you have to make the call. You have both sides now though so maybe that will help.

Marisa of the Sea said...

It's better to have loved and lost then never to have loved before...

If you don't take a chance you may never have known what could have happend it you had taken it...

But in the end no one can make the decision for you. There are some things you have to decided on by yourself...

The Short One said...

yes. in answer to your question...i say yes.

everyone has been going on talking about how the hurt never completely heals or how they will just screw it all because they want to have lived life to the fullest extent....

but i just say yes. in the end...it will be worth it.

yeah...the hurt may be there...and yes....you may wonder what could have happened...but if you learned from it...if you became a better person, which 300 percent of the time you will, then it was worth every second of pain...

don't you think?

wheatable said...

Life sucks and then you die.

thesexyswede said...

psshh....way to be profound Hoff...lol

Sousa said...

I disagree El Hoffo. Life is what you make it. Go do what you do.