Wednesday, November 02, 2005

...On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams...well more like a boat...Boat of Broken Dreams....Damn hole.

There are things that I want to do with my life. Things I want to accomplish, the only problem is that it's just not happening fast enough... I'm not a perfectionist, and God knows I'm far from perfect (and I'm fine with that) However, when I dedicate myself to something, I stick with it, and I'm NEVER satisfied with the end results; I'm always pushing myself to be better, pushing myself to work harder, and what bothers me is that it seems the harder I work to achieve something the harder it is to actually reach it.

...I'm in a row boat in the middle of a lake... I can see my dreams carved into the side of the boat, they are what support me, keep me moving and motivated to reach the other side. The only problem is I have this huge whole in my boat... I have to keep rowing, have to keep pushing, have to keep on living, but I can't because I HAVE A FREAKIN' HOLE IN MY DAMN BOAT! and the water just keeps pouring in faster than I can pail it out. If I don't fix it, if I just keep on letting the water in, there goes my dreams, and I'll just be stranded out in the middle of a lake...

I'm at a moment in my life where I should just Shut Up and Live I should just listen to the little Sousa in my head, but there's something inside me, something keeping me from just moving on...

I should figure out what it is...

6 comments:

Sousa said...

haha. Sorry, but it seems kind of funny, it sounds like something I've said before. Figure out what it is, that's what worked for me.

Keep your chin up and give 'em hell.

Alex Iskandar said...

Hey Jess ... never be disheartened, especially when you are striving to achieve your dreams ... and it seems to me, you're doing so with passion. Yeah, the darn holes will always be there, but always remember, dreams are what we strive for ... realities are what we do to achieve them and that includes plugging the holes along the way ;-)

thesexyswede said...

man I guess people with the name Alex are really cool or something... Alex Sousa and Alex Iskandar... awesome! hahaha thanks guys

Brynifred said...

I saw this on a commercial once. And reading this blog has made me invent a new philosophy that I intend to keep. Here it goes.


When life puts holes in your boat, PULL OUT THE TAMPONS!!!!

wheatable said...

You have a little Sousa in your head TOO??

WOO HOO FOR LITTLE SOUSAS!

Brynifred said...

I want a little sousa in my head...

I feel so left out!

*runs away to hide*